My own disdain for the man I am
Created such a rift,
A burden you weren't meant to bear,
A boulder you couldn't lift.
You were crushed by the weight
Of my broken heart
Your kindness and love could
Not even start
My love machine to humming again
I had forgotten what
Makes a man.
(Your kind hope tried to defibrillate,
But I would not jump start,)
I have resigned myself to sadness,
Shut the door and closed the blinds,
Seems better than the madness
When some beauty rudely reminds
Me of what cannot be,
My heart forever cries,
Though thoughts of you keep me alive
All hopes of happiness died.